reach
(Friday, January 30, 2009/8:33 PM)
i just hope.
i get.
one more time.
one more chance.
and then.
i will try again.
its not something i regret though.
because after all.
these two years.
have been the two most fantastic years.
of my small life.
Oh no, I see
A spider web is tangled up with me
And I lost my head
And thought of all the stupid things I'd said
Oh no, what's this?
A spider web and I'm caught in the middle
So I turned to run
And thought of all the stupid things I'd done
I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm
Oh no, I see
A spider web and it's me in the middle
So I twist and turn
But here am I in my little bubble
Singing and I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me...
i get.
one more time.
one more chance.
and then.
i will try again.
its not something i regret though.
because after all.
these two years.
have been the two most fantastic years.
of my small life.
Oh no, I see
A spider web is tangled up with me
And I lost my head
And thought of all the stupid things I'd said
Oh no, what's this?
A spider web and I'm caught in the middle
So I turned to run
And thought of all the stupid things I'd done
I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm
Oh no, I see
A spider web and it's me in the middle
So I twist and turn
But here am I in my little bubble
Singing and I never meant to cause you trouble
I never meant to do you wrong
And I, well if I ever caused you trouble
Oh no, I never meant to do you harm
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me
They spun a web for me...
risk
(Sunday, January 25, 2009/11:49 PM)
been awhile since i did this.
because sometimes just sitting and waiting.
is not enough.
it's more than enough for me though.
the days go by so fast.
like i said in a history that has long gone past.
at least i.
can do what i want to do.
and sit here.
as i watch people walk past me.
not that i am stationary.
just that i move slowly.
and take time to enjoy the scenery.
which unfolds beyond the dust that settles.
and then we shall repeat this all over again.
and still enjoy it.
for we will remember.
and remember.
we will.
integrity
(Thursday, January 22, 2009/12:11 PM)
my mom speaks to me about.
bias and prejudice.
and why it can exist in places most unlikely.
i feel blessed.
because for many years i've been kept in the dark.
staying happy at the sight of my parents' smiles.
it's been a few years now.
and i have long known the true side of who i thought.
were at least kind in that sense.
but life doesn't change.
i will still smile when my parents do.
because they have worked hard for me.
telling a lie is an easy thing to do.
keeping a lie is not so easy.
and so i don't find it to be bad in any way.
in fact.
i appreciate it.
so perhaps.
i might just start working hard.
to at least let them know that.
their son can do whatever he says he wants to do.
and let those fools know.
you picked the right person to lavish on.
now regret.
and regret it hard.
because revenge is not what i seek for.
it is redemption.
bias and prejudice.
and why it can exist in places most unlikely.
i feel blessed.
because for many years i've been kept in the dark.
staying happy at the sight of my parents' smiles.
it's been a few years now.
and i have long known the true side of who i thought.
were at least kind in that sense.
but life doesn't change.
i will still smile when my parents do.
because they have worked hard for me.
telling a lie is an easy thing to do.
keeping a lie is not so easy.
and so i don't find it to be bad in any way.
in fact.
i appreciate it.
so perhaps.
i might just start working hard.
to at least let them know that.
their son can do whatever he says he wants to do.
and let those fools know.
you picked the right person to lavish on.
now regret.
and regret it hard.
because revenge is not what i seek for.
it is redemption.
absence
(Saturday, January 17, 2009/12:47 PM)
in essence.
i have nothing to say.
well the days drag along.
so eventually time will come to pass.
and life will go back to normal.
but letting it stay like this for a little while longer.
is perhaps a good thing.
for in the end.
everything will stay the same.
or return to what it was.
and we can all sit down together.
and think.
of what exactly we did with our lives.
for pondering about existence is just another of humanity's unsolved questions.
i have nothing to say.
well the days drag along.
so eventually time will come to pass.
and life will go back to normal.
but letting it stay like this for a little while longer.
is perhaps a good thing.
for in the end.
everything will stay the same.
or return to what it was.
and we can all sit down together.
and think.
of what exactly we did with our lives.
for pondering about existence is just another of humanity's unsolved questions.
(Monday, January 12, 2009/12:06 AM)
listen
well.
for as long as i hear it playing.
oh well.
one day we all know that.
we shall meet again.
and that no matter how far the hands of fate might pull us apart.
there will always be a crossroad that will bring us.
back together again.
and then i shall turn around.
and i shall remember.
everything that was dear to me.
memories that will now only reside in my mind.
i know there is nothing left to say.
because we all know together.
what this will all become.
and with that i say goodbye.
one last time.
and so tomorrow.
it's a brand new day.
also.
to myself.
it's probably a silly thing to do.
but if it really happens.
i will try harder this year.
and perhaps.
even if i'll have to wait a bit longer.
i will wait with open arms.
for what is a day to an eternity?
and what is a day to a second without you.
so.
oh winds of fate.
if it be your will.
i am not asking for a miracle.
i am trying to make one happen.
and through all these inevitabilities.
accidents.
and my actions.
perhaps the miracle i dream of might just come true.
it's not about the material result.
it's that i know.
that it's time to ask.
time to ask once more.
well.
for as long as i hear it playing.
oh well.
one day we all know that.
we shall meet again.
and that no matter how far the hands of fate might pull us apart.
there will always be a crossroad that will bring us.
back together again.
and then i shall turn around.
and i shall remember.
everything that was dear to me.
memories that will now only reside in my mind.
i know there is nothing left to say.
because we all know together.
what this will all become.
and with that i say goodbye.
one last time.
and so tomorrow.
it's a brand new day.
also.
to myself.
it's probably a silly thing to do.
but if it really happens.
i will try harder this year.
and perhaps.
even if i'll have to wait a bit longer.
i will wait with open arms.
for what is a day to an eternity?
and what is a day to a second without you.
so.
oh winds of fate.
if it be your will.
i am not asking for a miracle.
i am trying to make one happen.
and through all these inevitabilities.
accidents.
and my actions.
perhaps the miracle i dream of might just come true.
it's not about the material result.
it's that i know.
that it's time to ask.
time to ask once more.
(Saturday, January 10, 2009/12:20 AM)
refresh
what else have i left to say.
well.
just a bit more.
and it'll all be clear.
so i'll just sit here and wait.
because waiting is all i could do.
it's still the only thing i can do.
so i will wait.
and one day the result will come at the end of it.
what else have i left to say.
well.
just a bit more.
and it'll all be clear.
so i'll just sit here and wait.
because waiting is all i could do.
it's still the only thing i can do.
so i will wait.
and one day the result will come at the end of it.
(Thursday, January 01, 2009/11:46 PM)
drag
and just for the date.
it shall be here.
nothing has changed in the end.
so onward and forward i shall continue to walk.
onward and forward i go.
and just for the date.
it shall be here.
nothing has changed in the end.
so onward and forward i shall continue to walk.
onward and forward i go.